So, AF finally showed tonight, so I am am all set to start this next cycle. I have to call tomorrow to see how I am going to squeeze in my CD 3 appointment, I picked up my BCP prescription tonight, and I am ready to go!
There is so much juxtaposition in my emotions right now. I feel so excited to get started, but I am petrified as well. Sometimes it is hard to wrap my mind around the fact that it is going to take IVF to get us pregnant. That fact that we are embarking on #2 is just incredulous to me.
I know what I am facing: horrid emotional mood swings on the BCP, bruises and bloat from the stim shots, the painful egg retrieval , the transfer , the endless 2 week wait. I can take all of that, but what if it doesn't work? What if, once again, it is NOT my turn?
That I don't think I can take.
So, I will go to bed and pray, as I do every night, for the strength to do this, the strength to stay positive, and the miracle of a pregnancy.