Monday, July 20, 2009

Dark day.

I have not had a day like this in awhile.

The day started out terribly when I got BOTH of my hands stuck in the garage door this morning. That sucked. Then I did not go to my yoga class because, let's face it, it is a little hard to downward dog when you can't use your hands. The gym has been my savior these past few months and I think I really needed to go today.

I have also been fighting with R since basically Friday night. He did something stupid and I can't seem to let it go. I got pissed off all over again today... and a very one-sided fight ensued wherein I hurled a Yankee Candle across the room. WTF? First of all, that is crazy. Secondly, those things are not cheap.

I don't know. I got my period last week, and I think I was delusional enough to think perhaps that I could be lucky enough to get that miracle break BFP.

I just feel like this is never going to happen for us.

I wonder what people who do not have all kinds of crazyshit wrong with their lives do with all of the free time they must have while they are not driving themselves crazy.

Sigh. today, I just want to pull the covers over my head and tell the world to go away.


Tara said...

what a crappy monday! hope tomorrow is brighter for you!

MJ said...

I am so sorry you're having such a hard day. I had to smile when you commented on how the Yankee candles are not cheap:) Don't feel bad, I've thrown many a things on bad days and said some really mean thing to DH.

Hang in there, tomorrow is a new day!


Peachy said...

What a crap day that you have been having! Don't worry about the candle, you could have picked something more expensive to throw. I know the feeling of it is never going to happen all to well. My mood swings from one day to the next could not be more extreme.

I hope the rest of your week goes better!

Anonymous said...

Petal, I think we can all understand you as those dark days happen to everyone no matter what type of life they have. You know this dark day will end and tomorrow will be brighter. The feeling that it'll never happen for you is also temporary (I had it too just a couple of weeks ago) and you'll find your hope and strength once again. Big hugs, Fran

JackieMac said...

You are not alone - I do the same thing every single month - like right now I am in the 2ww and I am crampy - it is probably because AF is on her way - but I am hoping and praying that maybe just maybe I am pregnant - IF SUCKS. (((HUGS)))