Monday, October 26, 2009

Beta #3 is not good.

It was 355 on Friday.
555 today.
RE is not hopeful.

Someone, please tell me how it is possible that I can be looking at miscarriage #4. Please, tell me how this is possible.

What have I done?

Why can't we have a child?

How much heartbreak do we have to endure?

12 comments:

Me said...

For what it's worth many clinic's only require a 60% increase in 48 hours for the level to be considered "normal". Don't give up yet.

Lindsey B said...

I am so sorry that you are not having "text book" betas. I am so sad b/c you deserve a baby so much.

I know it is hard, so I am going to stay positive for you! Hopefully your beta on Thursday will surprise all of us!

(((HUGS)))

-LCB

jeanna said...

my heart is breaking for you. IF is so unfair. (((HUGS))) I am holding out the hope for you.

Kristen said...

I refuse to give up hope just yet. My heart is in my stomach for you...and I'm praying for a miracle!

*hugs*

Nlvaden said...

Don't give up yet!!

J said...

Sending Love and Light to you and your family.

OppositeOfOops said...

Oh crap. I'm so sorry.

I'm going to keep my fingers crossed for you on Thursday.

(hugs) to you.

Simple said...

I'm very sorry you are going through this again. I wish I (or anyone) had answers for you - try to hold on.

Fran said...

I cannot believe this is happening again. It's just unberable and I just want to hug you. That life was not fair we all knew...but THIS MUCH unfair? Come on..

What do you have to do next? More beta? I feel for you so much, I don't know what else to say.
Fran

leira said...

Don't give up yet. the following has been a source of hope for me:
THE POWER OF PRAYER.

I believe that God only gives three answers to prayer:

1. 'Yes!'
2. 'Not yet.'
3. 'I have something better in mind.'

hugs, and hope thursday brings you better news.

negrilbride07 said...

I am so very sorry that you are dealing with this and have done so for as long as you have. I pray that you feel all of the love and support that embraces you from our board.

(((huge hugs)))

negrilbride07

Rebecca said...

I have been trying to follow you and my heart is breaking for you. It definitely isn't fair. When things turned so sour for us, i did turn to my faith too. Leira said it PERFECTLY, please believe that.