I wish that this was all that was on my mind. You see, AF showed today. While this is never fun ( and yes, there was a small part of me that deluded myself into thinking that since I paid no attention to my cycle, I would miraculously get pregnant), I now need to make a decision as to when I am going to cycle again. Now that AF is here, I have a better idea of what my time-frame would be like, so I have to weigh my options ( considering some work events) in terms of cycling in Feb v. March. Here comes that familiar pit. This break has been good for me, but returning is hard.
I also need to talk to my principal, as this will be my first time doing a fresh IVF during the school year. He is a great guy, but this is a conversation that I never thought I would have with my male boss and quite frankly, I am feeling a little resentful that I even have to have it.
So, tonight anticipation is getting the better of me. But the anticipation is usually more difficult than the actual events, right?