In that conversation, she taught me one of her last and probably most important lessons: You can't stop to question the bad in life when there has been so much good. Even in her sickness, knowing her time was near, she was able to detail a long list of events in her life that were precious and wonderful. She explained to me that she never asked God "why am I so lucky to have this happen to me?" So, when it came to facing the bad, the same logic applies. You can't have it both was.
So, today I am working really hard to channel my mom and all of her sage advice. I have such an incredible, rock solid marriage. Neither of us are perfect, but we are perfect for each other. These last few days have been rough, but they certainly made me realize all over again how amazing R is.
I have a loving family and amazing friends who are being so incredibly supportive. I am blessed to have a career that I really love. I have seven frozen embryo; so I know we can try again. Thankfully, should we have to do another fresh IVF, although it will hurt a bit, we do have the means to do so.
So, I am giving myself until my belly feels better to mope a bit and then it is time to get on with the business of living. I want to lose weight, run again, and enjoy my husband and our marriage.
Thanks mom, even when are aren't here... you are.