On Tuesday, I had a little pain on my left side, but it went away fairly quickly. The same thing happened yesterday morning, but again, it went away. It was until 11:00ish last night that my stomach was killing me. It was pretty intolerable; it felt pretty similar to when my appendix burst.
I told R that we needed to get to the ER and off we went. By the time we got there, I honestly thought I was going to die the pain was so bad; I was actually wishing I would pass out.
Finally, after drawing bloods they took me for an u/s. The girl was nice- she asked me if I wanted her to tell me what was going on or if I wanted to wait for the Dr. I asked her to just tell me. the sac in my uterus was empty and we had a live ectopic in my left tube. My God, it had the pole, the yolk sac and a heartbeat.
I think that is the thing I am the hardest time dealing with. My little bean was actually alive, just in the wrong place. I am just so heartbroken. I just really am. I guess this is one more test. I just feel like we are never going to have a baby.
So for now, I guess I need to be grateful that I am safe. I just think it is going to take a lot for my heart to heal this time.